April 2018

25^th april 2018

The first month very very hard

The second very hard

The third hard

The months are getting less hard as time passes. Comparatively speaking

With Rutvi we are going back to the experiences of raising Tanvi, we are recalling all those moments

I am 58 kg now. My pre- pregnancy weight.

Morning breakfast usually rice item

Then a cup of milk with mothers horlicks, then a banana, then tea with 2-3 biscuits, then a cup of milk with women’s horlicks, then dinner then a cup with bournvita or shatavari guda

2 months drank 750ml of milk daily. Doc had recommended a litre

After that got bored with milk. So two cups. Then got bored some more; so by the time she turned three months, I was drinking only one cup a day.

3^rd april

Slept at 11:00 p.m

Woke up 5:30 a.m

5 mins drank milk and slept again.

Like adults, 6 hours continuous sleep.

Again woke up 6:30 a.m and slept. Again woke up 8:00 and played.

By 2 months, not yet 2 months, 3 days more to go, she has fallen into the adult sleep pattern. Thank god for these little mercies. I am regaining my mental balance which i lost in the first month due to sleeplessness, lack of sleep. I am happier now. able to do almost all the work at home. Yet to do breakfast full time every day. It needs someone to be with rutvi while i make. Right now can’t.

7^th april

Slept from 11 to 6:00 a.m. 7 hours at a stretch. Wow! From sleeping four hours in total that too in intervals of 20 minutes – 30 minutes throughout the night to a 7 hour stretch sleep. It has brought my sanity back.

 It also has been 2 weeks since she started cooing and babbling and responding to my voice and face. Recognises me and breaks into a delicious smile and when i speak, she opens her eyes this big and moves her lips saying something. It’s clear that she is talking to me though the words are not there yet. It’s such a pleasure –our conversations. Sometimes i say something and just repeat, is that you? And she nods and giggles and opens her eyes wide. As if saying yes Amma yes

 The boxing, kicking and cycling movements are pronounced now. Try holding her leg down, she will kick very hard. No more swaddling. She kicks the blanket away. And it’s hot too now.

I can’t believe I am saying this but if you can afford it (financially) and love children, you must go for a 2^nd child. The mistakes and trials and errors of the first time better equips you to handle the 2^nd one. You enjoy the process of raising a child more the 2^nd time. The first time you are so raw and young every little thing about the baby scares you – spitting, vomiting. Then there are people to scare you if you are not scared enough already. Now you know it’s a natural process of reflex or regurgitation and nothing to be anxious about. The level of calm is higher.

9^th April Monday

Constipated since Friday. Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon Rutvi had not passed motions. So worried. Finally today an hour after we were at home she passed her motions. What a relief! Imagine being happy to see shit! 

Sat 4 p.m we left for Mysore, visited Nanjangud today and reached home at 4 p.m.

Every time we changed her diaper, during the trip, we would eagerly look at it. But no. Every time just urine.

Nanjangud has changed so much. We last went in 2014 ? 2010 ? Don't remember!

14^th april 

His father called. Night 10 p.m from deepu’s phone. Which i had not saved. So picked up the call.

15^th april 

Cradle. Kiran. Colleague