25th april 2018
The first month very very
hard
The second very hard
The third hard
The months are getting
less hard as time passes. Comparatively speaking
With Rutvi we are going
back to the experiences of raising Tanvi, we are recalling all those moments
I am 58 kg now. My pre- pregnancy
weight.
Morning breakfast usually
rice item
Then a cup of milk with
mothers horlicks, then a banana, then tea with 2-3 biscuits, then a cup of milk
with women’s horlicks, then dinner then a cup with bournvita or shatavari guda
2 months drank 750ml of milk
daily. Doc had recommended a litre
After that got bored with
milk. So two cups. Then got bored some more; so by the time she turned three
months, I was drinking only one cup a day.
3rd april
Slept at 11:00 p.m
Woke up 5:30 a.m
5 mins drank milk and
slept again.
Like adults, 6 hours
continuous sleep.
Again woke up 6:30 a.m and
slept. Again woke up 8:00 and played.
By 2 months, not yet 2 months,
3 days more to go, she has fallen into the adult sleep pattern. Thank god for
these little mercies. I am regaining my mental balance which i lost in the
first month due to sleeplessness, lack of sleep. I am happier now. able to do
almost all the work at home. Yet to do breakfast full time every day. It needs
someone to be with rutvi while i make. Right now can’t.
7th
april
Slept
from 11 to 6:00 a.m. 7 hours at a stretch. Wow! From sleeping four hours in
total that too in intervals of 20 minutes – 30 minutes throughout the night to
a 7 hour stretch sleep. It has brought my sanity back.
It also has been 2 weeks since she started
cooing and babbling and responding to my voice and face. Recognises me and
breaks into a delicious smile and when i speak, she opens her eyes this big and
moves her lips saying something. It’s clear that she is talking to me though
the words are not there yet. It’s such a pleasure –our conversations. Sometimes
i say something and just repeat, is that you? And she nods and giggles and opens
her eyes wide. As if saying yes Amma yes
The
boxing, kicking and cycling movements are pronounced now. Try holding her leg down,
she will kick very hard. No more swaddling. She kicks the blanket away. And it’s
hot too now.
I
can’t believe I am saying this but if you can afford it (financially) and love
children, you must go for a 2nd child. The mistakes and trials and
errors of the first time better equips you to handle the 2nd one.
You enjoy the process of raising a child more the 2nd time. The
first time you are so raw and young every little thing about the baby scares
you – spitting, vomiting. Then there are people to scare you if you are not
scared enough already. Now you know it’s a natural process of reflex or
regurgitation and nothing to be anxious about. The level of calm is higher.
9th
April Monday
Constipated
since Friday. Fri, Sat, Sun, Mon Rutvi had not passed motions. So worried.
Finally today an hour after we were at home she passed her motions. What a
relief! Imagine being happy to see shit!
Sat
4 p.m we left for Mysore, visited Nanjangud today and reached home at 4 p.m.
Every
time we changed her diaper, during the trip, we would eagerly look at it. But
no. Every time just urine.
Nanjangud
has changed so much. We last went in 2014 ? 2010 ? Don't remember!
14th
april
His
father called. Night 10 p.m from deepu’s phone. Which i had not saved. So
picked up the call.
15th
april
Cradle.
Kiran. Colleague